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Jan. 12th, 2004 12:23 amThe last time I posted on this subject I locked it to "friends only." This time I'm not going to do that. The big reason: so that others can see how I see myself as how I believe others see me.
I'll cut to the chase first, then explain: simply put, I'm not doing my job at work, plain and simple.
The explanation: On Friday I received a midterm performance feedback from my supervisor. The basic gist was nothing new, but there were some very disturbing aspects of my performance that, in the civilian world, would have had me fired, probably even on the spot. The biggest liability was not going the extra mile, not doing above and beyond that what is required. In a civilian job, that might be enough. But for the military, and especially for a military officer, that isn't good enough. One of our core values is "excellence in all we do," and that means giving 110%, all day, every day.
The other part of the question is this: am I at least giving my full effort, at least a hundred percent, to what I'm doing? My answer is no... I'm not even doing that. At best I would say I'm giving about 70 to 80 percent effort, and there are days when I think it may even be less than 50. That is probably the most disturbing statistic about my work performance.
All that said, some of you may be scratching your head, saying that you know me and there's no way I could be performing at a subpar level. Well, surprise, surprise... I'm here to say that my performance has been just that, subpar. It's gotten so bad to where I need augmentation to do the job properly, to do what I should have done 2.5 years ago. If I was just starting out in my current job there might be some excuse. But not when I've been in the same office for nearly 3 years and should know the job cold by now. Yes, I know the job... but I don't do enough for it. I suspect that if I were really doing my job properly, I should hardly be spending time in the office... rather, I should be spending all day in meetings and briefings, plugging in my job wherever I can.
That has not been happening... and the only explanations I can offer for what I've been doing (or not doing) are all excuses. Doesn't matter if they're good ones or bad ones... they're still excuses.
But lest you think all is lost, I can start again. I should have never dropped to the level I'm at now, but now it'll take some extra help to get me back to where I was when I started, and to surpass that. Not only that, I need to make sure I take the lessons learned from the past few weeks and make sure I do well at my next assignment, though to be honest I don't know if I can even meet the work standards anymore. I certainly couldn't do it here, where things were pretty laid-back... how should I expect to do well in a busier environment?
I'll cut to the chase first, then explain: simply put, I'm not doing my job at work, plain and simple.
The explanation: On Friday I received a midterm performance feedback from my supervisor. The basic gist was nothing new, but there were some very disturbing aspects of my performance that, in the civilian world, would have had me fired, probably even on the spot. The biggest liability was not going the extra mile, not doing above and beyond that what is required. In a civilian job, that might be enough. But for the military, and especially for a military officer, that isn't good enough. One of our core values is "excellence in all we do," and that means giving 110%, all day, every day.
The other part of the question is this: am I at least giving my full effort, at least a hundred percent, to what I'm doing? My answer is no... I'm not even doing that. At best I would say I'm giving about 70 to 80 percent effort, and there are days when I think it may even be less than 50. That is probably the most disturbing statistic about my work performance.
All that said, some of you may be scratching your head, saying that you know me and there's no way I could be performing at a subpar level. Well, surprise, surprise... I'm here to say that my performance has been just that, subpar. It's gotten so bad to where I need augmentation to do the job properly, to do what I should have done 2.5 years ago. If I was just starting out in my current job there might be some excuse. But not when I've been in the same office for nearly 3 years and should know the job cold by now. Yes, I know the job... but I don't do enough for it. I suspect that if I were really doing my job properly, I should hardly be spending time in the office... rather, I should be spending all day in meetings and briefings, plugging in my job wherever I can.
That has not been happening... and the only explanations I can offer for what I've been doing (or not doing) are all excuses. Doesn't matter if they're good ones or bad ones... they're still excuses.
But lest you think all is lost, I can start again. I should have never dropped to the level I'm at now, but now it'll take some extra help to get me back to where I was when I started, and to surpass that. Not only that, I need to make sure I take the lessons learned from the past few weeks and make sure I do well at my next assignment, though to be honest I don't know if I can even meet the work standards anymore. I certainly couldn't do it here, where things were pretty laid-back... how should I expect to do well in a busier environment?
