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... not what you think, either...
Here, scoring below the minimum grade required for passing is considered a "bust". Needless to say, today's test turned out to be a disaster. Without revealing any scores, all I'll say is that I know I need to retest, and right now my chances of even passing this class I'm in are in jeopardy.
When I first came here, I had some aspirations of getting some kind of recognition for the work and effort I put into the class. It's obvious now that any chances of that happening have all been shot, period. I'm honestly not even sure what I've gotten out of the class, other than perhaps filling in a block on having completed PME.
Last night I filled in a self-assessment that I believed was true at the time. Now, I'm not so sure anymore. Sure, I'm a good follower and team player, and willing to devote effort toward that. But beyond that I seriously wonder if I've been fooling myself for the past four weeks. One thing that I did NOT want to do was waste five weeks of my time here, especially now that war has broken out.
Did I waste my time here? I honestly don't know the answer. And it's not just this particular test, which (as I said) puts my graduating from this course in jeopardy. It almost makes the remaining week here completely worthless.
Perhaps my outlook will change in the next few days... but to be honest, it's tough to say. I don't want to give up, for my flight will suffer if I do. But at the same time I don't even know if there's really anything left for me here either.
Here, scoring below the minimum grade required for passing is considered a "bust". Needless to say, today's test turned out to be a disaster. Without revealing any scores, all I'll say is that I know I need to retest, and right now my chances of even passing this class I'm in are in jeopardy.
When I first came here, I had some aspirations of getting some kind of recognition for the work and effort I put into the class. It's obvious now that any chances of that happening have all been shot, period. I'm honestly not even sure what I've gotten out of the class, other than perhaps filling in a block on having completed PME.
Last night I filled in a self-assessment that I believed was true at the time. Now, I'm not so sure anymore. Sure, I'm a good follower and team player, and willing to devote effort toward that. But beyond that I seriously wonder if I've been fooling myself for the past four weeks. One thing that I did NOT want to do was waste five weeks of my time here, especially now that war has broken out.
Did I waste my time here? I honestly don't know the answer. And it's not just this particular test, which (as I said) puts my graduating from this course in jeopardy. It almost makes the remaining week here completely worthless.
Perhaps my outlook will change in the next few days... but to be honest, it's tough to say. I don't want to give up, for my flight will suffer if I do. But at the same time I don't even know if there's really anything left for me here either.
