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It's not easy to leave again...
Sep. 12th, 2004 05:27 amWent to a farewell dinner for me with my family and friends. I was in somewhat of a daze because part of me either couldn't, or doesn't want to, believe that I'm leaving... but I was also sad because I'll be leaving some really good friends.
Throughout the evening I kept thinking about the Charlie Brown quote about hating goodbyes and needing more hellos, and that quote very much rang true for me. Two songs have also gone through my mind, and neither of them make leaving any easier...
"Looking out upon the city night and the stars above the ocean... took my clothes and put them in my bags, try not to think just yet of leaving, looking out upon the city night, it's not easy to leave again... Each time Honolulu city lights stir up memories in me... Each time Honolulu city lights bring me back again... wondering which of my friends will leave me, standing with their leis around my neck, it's not easy to leave again..." -- "Honolulu City Lights" (Keola & Kapono Beamer)
"Here we are, standing at an airport gate, all those wishes on a star that missed so far will have to wait... going, like an ebb-tide flowing, soon you will be far across the sea... flying, soon you will be flying, like a teardrop drying, leaving just a memory... stay awhile, linger just a minute more, let me see that winning style, that little smile you always wore..." -- "Flying" (Peter Moon Band)
I do have one request of those that I'll be meeting when I get to Nebraska, and that is that I hope they can ease my loneliness, homesickness and separation anxiety I will have of being away from home, family and friends again. The first time, back in September 1992, was hard enough, though that was mostly separation anxiety. Now it'll be that plus being homesick and lonely.
Throughout the evening I kept thinking about the Charlie Brown quote about hating goodbyes and needing more hellos, and that quote very much rang true for me. Two songs have also gone through my mind, and neither of them make leaving any easier...
"Looking out upon the city night and the stars above the ocean... took my clothes and put them in my bags, try not to think just yet of leaving, looking out upon the city night, it's not easy to leave again... Each time Honolulu city lights stir up memories in me... Each time Honolulu city lights bring me back again... wondering which of my friends will leave me, standing with their leis around my neck, it's not easy to leave again..." -- "Honolulu City Lights" (Keola & Kapono Beamer)
"Here we are, standing at an airport gate, all those wishes on a star that missed so far will have to wait... going, like an ebb-tide flowing, soon you will be far across the sea... flying, soon you will be flying, like a teardrop drying, leaving just a memory... stay awhile, linger just a minute more, let me see that winning style, that little smile you always wore..." -- "Flying" (Peter Moon Band)
I do have one request of those that I'll be meeting when I get to Nebraska, and that is that I hope they can ease my loneliness, homesickness and separation anxiety I will have of being away from home, family and friends again. The first time, back in September 1992, was hard enough, though that was mostly separation anxiety. Now it'll be that plus being homesick and lonely.
